Thanksgiving 2014

Here comes my obligatory Thanksgiving post. The holidays are officially here and I don't know if I'm ready. I don't really have a choice do I? 

This year's holidays are weird for my family. It will be the first year without my grandma and a lot of my family members are traveling all around. There's also my wedding that is still being planned, my dad is turning the big 5-0 and my sister is turning 18. My family sticks to traditions pretty religiously but I think we can take these changes head on. Plus, it may just help us to focus on the meaning of each holiday.  

There's so much to be thankful for this Thanksgiving and really any day for that matter.

I'm thankful for:

* My family hanging out, preparing Thanksgiving dinner, and watching the parade

* My loving, hardworking fiance who sacrifices turkey and football when he goes to work on Thanksgiving

* My friends and family who are working their butts off to make our wedding run smoothly

* The fact that I don't have student loans weighing down on me

* Having only two more weeks of this semester

* Two adorable pups sleeping at my feet right now

* The smell of winter outside (not thankful for the cold though...just saying)

* Josey's wiggles in the morning

* Drinking coffee and staying in my PJ's until noon

* Apple pie and vanilla ice cream

I wish you all a cozy, warm, relaxing Thanksgiving. I pray we can all focus on those we love and unwind from the craziness of everyday life. Love on each other and don't think about how much you are eating...it's ok...no one's judging you.

Closure

You know the feeling of needing closure? Of course you do. Everyone has that moment. I've been having that feeling a lot lately. I want to get rid of all the baggage (or at least have control over it) before I marry Johnathan. I know, I know, that's not exactly realistic, but I still want to try!

There are certain things in my past that have affected and changed me. Nothing horrific! But still things that I'd like to confront and officially close. There were certain friendships that were extremely toxic to me (and that's as specific as I'm going to get). I've considered writing letters to these people, but then realized that's more effort on my part and to be frank, they really aren't worth it. But I'm still left feeling like that period isn't over for me. 

Are these past friendships hindering the ones I am making today? I believe they are. Because of them I am slow to trust and quick to self-blame. That's not fair. Your friends should not make you feel worthless, but mine did. 

I don't want this lack of self-confidence to take away from my relationship with my soon-to-be husband or the friends I have that actually love me. It takes a long time for me to fully let myself rest in the friendship and allow myself to believe that the fondness goes both ways. 

Your friends should stand up for you.

Your friends should make the effort to see you.

Your friends should include you.

Your friends should care about how you are doing. 

Your friends should build you up.

Your friends should check up on you.

Your friends should encourage you.

Your friends should appreciate you.

Your friends should love you.

Mine didn't. 

Because of this, I am eternally grateful that God put the friends that I have now in my life. Thank you for standing up for me. Thank you for making the effort to see me. Thank you for including me. Thank you for caring about how I am. Thank you for building me up from the bottom where I was. Thank you for checking on me constantly. Thank you for encouraging me every day. Thank you for appreciating me. Thank you for loving me. Each day I work towards loving each and every one of you better because I never want you to feel anything less than adored.

The Happenings

This past week has been insane. I feel like I say this in every post. But I'm serious! This time it was really insane. I find myself exhausted from the whirlwind of emotions. 

I guess the best place to start is at the beginning. 

Last Monday I was having a rough day. I honestly don't remember the details but I think it  consisted of too much school and a melting brain. You feel me? So as I pulled into my apartment complex I couldn't get myself to go in and start being productive. Off to our local humane society I went! 

Earlier that morning, I had heard on the radio that they had a German Shepherd there and I was dying to see her. Her name was Josey and her previous owners had left her tied up in their yard since she was a puppy. For that I must say, Karma's coming for them.

When I saw her I knew she was special. Johnathan and I knew we had to have her! 

Getting her was the tough part. There was a long, drawn out fight with the landlord and Karma's coming for them too. But finally! on Thursday morning we got to go pick up our pup (she's actually 5, not so much a pup).

 She's rotten in the most adorable ways. Right now, she is sleeping on top of a nerf explosion she created. We love her!

Next on the insanity list is my BRIDAL SHOWER! Me! I had a Bridal Shower! None of this seems real.

It was wonderful. It was fun. It was everything I could have wished for. I got to see almost everyone that I love in one day! Everyone put so much work into making that day special for me and it was absolutely perfect. There wasn't one thing that I would have changed! ...Well actually, I would have skipped on the gum balls...I paid for that for two days afterward...but who cares! Not me! Because my people rock!

There is so much for me to be thankful for. I've had a great week! Though to be honest when I say that it was insane that was including the not so wonderful things that have happened as well. I know I don't want this blog to be somewhere that I complain, but I do want it to be real. I'm human and things get to me. School was too much this week. Josey is in the process of being trained and I need more energy in order for that to happen. I haven't spent time with John in at least two weeks. I'm getting to the point of grumpy monster rapidly and it isn't looking good for those who cross my path. I will get through this season but it won't be pretty!

Thank you all for reading! It encourages me every day! Blog day is my favorite day =)

Interview With The Roomie: Part Two

You guys thought I forgot, didn't you! There were riots around the world last week when Becky's interview wasn't there. There was mass confusion; wait, doesn't she have two roommates? I did not forget! This is my world and I make the rules. 

So to keep my people happy, I will not make you wait any longer. Here is Beckster!

Becky and I have been roommates for two years. We really hit it off when we found out that we were both in the exercise field. She's a busy bee and definitely keeps Kendra and I on our toes. She's always dragging us introverts out into the scary world. We love and hate her for it.

This is Becky with her little sister. The cuteness is too much to handle.

1. Ok, first off how old are you? 

20

2. What’s your major?

Physical Education (she said it all fancy-like. As if we don't just call it "gym")

3. What do you do for fun?

I run, I do sports, I hang out with friends and I do crafts. I shop! (We don't get full sentences from P.E. majors. JUST KIDDING BECKS! I LOVE YOU)

4. When I say school what do you think?

Failing. Dumb. Hard. Oh, I got an A on my quiz today! (Becks, you da bomb!)

5.What’s your favorite day of the year?

Thanksgiving. There's lots of food, you just eat all day! It's based around family time. I like that it is a holiday about quality time and not just about gifts.

6.What was the last picture you took on your phone?

I screen shot a picture of that cat thing...

I'm not even going to explain this one. I'm just gonna let her suffer =)

7.What did you want to be when you were a kid?

Forensic meteorologist. When you were a kid?! Oh true. It changed a lot. I wanted to be a firefighter or really anything that had to do with emergency care. But then I realized I hated needles...home girl can’t deal with that. 

8.What is your motto in life?

I have two:

C’s get degrees! And there are no rules! Well...two rules: the couches can’t come into my room and Kendra can’t scream in the kitchen. (I had to make these two very important rules to keep peace in our apartment. I run a tight ship)

9.What is your favorite curse word?

Butthole...Mother trucker. (the first two words to come out of her mouth) This is inappropriate. People are going to read this!! I guess the S word. Like when people say awwwwwww s^&t. Or when old people say damn it. It just slips out and it's hilarious!

That's my Beckster! Now you know who I live with. It's a pretty hard life. 

I had a lot of fun with this! I hope you all enjoyed it as well. See you next week!